Connecting Stars

[kihou]

Sam's birthday party, which was fun. Unpleasantness with parents, which was less so.

So, Zan was getting all overwhelmed about all the stuff she wants to do and how she doesn't have enough time for anything. While I was trying to encourage her (somehow she's gotten into empathetic-link catergory), one thing I started thinking was about how much I've changed, and started looking forward to walking home with Zan at night and talking. This 'plan' was ruined by worried Mom. I got upset over it—I'd be a lot different now if it hadn't been for introspective walks home from Area Studies, and it'd never really struck me (in the pre-empathetic-link stage) how Zan's experience would be different than mine. I don't even know if she'd... gravitate the same way. She probably doesn't have Stargap (easier to type for some reason than... Lunarali, Jahyper •). Maybe I'm just projecting. I've always thought Zan was at least two years more mature than I was at her age, but I'm wondering how Japan will affect her 3 remaining years of high school, how I would have dealt with it. I don't know, and it's probably not for me to know, but on my part I've been feeling like I really know my parents less and less, starting after Japan but more so now, with things like Mom not not caring if I decided I wanted to be Catholic... I know I'm ready to go, and I hope Zan finds a starlit path towards her own hometown.

EDIT: To state this noncryptically, Mom's not letting Zan walk home from Area Studies, which annoys me, because it was one thing I really enjoyed about Area Studies, as it gave me a chance to gravitate (think deeply about) the stuff from class. Sorry for creating yet another entry that sounds a lot worse than I meant it to be.

I'll probably resume Pennsic updates tomorrow, not in the mood right now.

Oh, and I might actually start working on Abhorsen-world campaign materials, now that Melissa's brought it up independently. It would be quite neat, but I really don't need more to do. Then again, there's little point to completing the Haernamë rules as a document as opposed to as I go, so *shruggle*

Xavid

Comments

[storyhobbit.livejournal.com]

From what I can tell you get along with Zan far, far better than I have ever gotten along with either of my brothers, and as someone who had to wait until high school to find surrogate big brother types, I'd say that sometimes just having someone on your side to go to when you need to talk makes all the difference. She's a smart kid and she's got good people looking out for her. She'll be okay.

[zinnia-zeroth.livejournal.com]

Awww, now I got you are cynical? Bad Zan. Some of that was esoteric enough that I missed it, and I don't know how walks home at night affected you and I don't know how being younger in Japan will affect me, or my life after, since I'm really in quite a different place than you were when you took Area Studies. I expect that I should be able to deal with Japan and it'll be a great experience...

I guess to me the thing about Mom is sort of like how if you got hurt because you did something bad/stupid she would be upset and maybe mad but she would forgive you and love you anyway. If you were Catholic, she has her own biases of personal experience that she might be a bit upset, but she trusts you enough to leave it up to you. I think she just hopes she raised you with values that will lead you to a different path than the one she rejected. Maybe you need to talk to her, I don't know, but she prolly won't be happy to read this in your lj...

Did that make any sense?

I'm reading Lirael

[fantwurm.livejournal.com]

Right now I'm sitting at the library listening to Lirael on my portable tape recorder. Do a Sabriel campaign. Do it!!!!!!! I will definately help as much as possible.

[l33tminion]

Things will work out, Xave. Change can be overwhelming, but I think that it's usually ultimately good. And it's a lot easier when you have friends that you know are looking out for you.

Zan will be okay, and so will you (despite all angst)...

And, if you don't mind... *hugs*

[vitalycherno.livejournal.com]

Wow. Someone else out there was thinking of creating a Garth Nix inspired world. Damn. I still have to read the third book but i think that there is a rich world to be made with that. Especially because it could blend in elements of D&D and D20 Modern. The interplay between the two of them could make for some very interesting adventures.

Also on another RPG related note. Have you ever played Gamma World? It's a suppliment for D20 Modern that came out a few months ago (like october last year) It was a really cool back in the 80's because it was this sort of 50's radition craziness and it was humorous. But now its totally updated with things like AI, Nanotech and all sorts of really cool stuff. If you have a chance I recommend that you at least take a look throught the players guide because it has some really interesting things in it, and it also gives you the chance to have a referece guide for a potentially awesome post-apocolypse campaign

[mlejayne.livejournal.com]

Eh, I've had, and have, trouble expressing myself too. That's why I talk to my self... and I sing to myself in fake words and scribble in bright colors on peices of paper... And write things down on stationary and put them in hidden places in my room every night... And replay them in mind over and over again 'till I fall asleep.

I am really messed up. ::hits head with the palm of her hand and says "Heal":: Oh well. It's better then expressing myself in harmful and violent ways.

[agentfroot.livejournal.com]

Awww, I wish I had a big brother like you. Heh... it's funny, because you're 3 years younger than me. *giggles* Zan is lucky. *huggles*