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Connecting Stars
Sam's birthday party, which was fun. Unpleasantness with parents, which was less so.
So, Zan was getting all overwhelmed about all the stuff she wants to do and how she doesn't have enough time for anything. While I was trying to encourage her (somehow she's gotten into empathetic-link catergory), one thing I started thinking was about how much I've changed, and started looking forward to walking home with Zan at night and talking. This 'plan' was ruined by worried Mom. I got upset over it—I'd be a lot different now if it hadn't been for introspective walks home from Area Studies, and it'd never really struck me (in the pre-empathetic-link stage) how Zan's experience would be different than mine. I don't even know if she'd... gravitate the same way. She probably doesn't have Stargap (easier to type for some reason than... Lunarali, Jahyper •). Maybe I'm just projecting. I've always thought Zan was at least two years more mature than I was at her age, but I'm wondering how Japan will affect her 3 remaining years of high school, how I would have dealt with it. I don't know, and it's probably not for me to know, but on my part I've been feeling like I really know my parents less and less, starting after Japan but more so now, with things like Mom not not caring if I decided I wanted to be Catholic... I know I'm ready to go, and I hope Zan finds a starlit path towards her own hometown.
EDIT: To state this noncryptically, Mom's not letting Zan walk home from Area Studies, which annoys me, because it was one thing I really enjoyed about Area Studies, as it gave me a chance to gravitate (think deeply about) the stuff from class. Sorry for creating yet another entry that sounds a lot worse than I meant it to be.
I'll probably resume Pennsic updates tomorrow, not in the mood right now.
Oh, and I might actually start working on Abhorsen-world campaign materials, now that Melissa's brought it up independently. It would be quite neat, but I really don't need more to do. Then again, there's little point to completing the Haernamë rules as a document as opposed to as I go, so *shruggle*
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So, Zan was getting all overwhelmed about all the stuff she wants to do and how she doesn't have enough time for anything. While I was trying to encourage her (somehow she's gotten into empathetic-link catergory), one thing I started thinking was about how much I've changed, and started looking forward to walking home with Zan at night and talking. This 'plan' was ruined by worried Mom. I got upset over it—I'd be a lot different now if it hadn't been for introspective walks home from Area Studies, and it'd never really struck me (in the pre-empathetic-link stage) how Zan's experience would be different than mine. I don't even know if she'd... gravitate the same way. She probably doesn't have Stargap (easier to type for some reason than... Lunarali, Jahyper •). Maybe I'm just projecting. I've always thought Zan was at least two years more mature than I was at her age, but I'm wondering how Japan will affect her 3 remaining years of high school, how I would have dealt with it. I don't know, and it's probably not for me to know, but on my part I've been feeling like I really know my parents less and less, starting after Japan but more so now, with things like Mom not not caring if I decided I wanted to be Catholic... I know I'm ready to go, and I hope Zan finds a starlit path towards her own hometown.
EDIT: To state this noncryptically, Mom's not letting Zan walk home from Area Studies, which annoys me, because it was one thing I really enjoyed about Area Studies, as it gave me a chance to gravitate (think deeply about) the stuff from class. Sorry for creating yet another entry that sounds a lot worse than I meant it to be.
I'll probably resume Pennsic updates tomorrow, not in the mood right now.
Oh, and I might actually start working on Abhorsen-world campaign materials, now that Melissa's brought it up independently. It would be quite neat, but I really don't need more to do. Then again, there's little point to completing the Haernamë rules as a document as opposed to as I go, so *shruggle*
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I am really messed up. ::hits head with the palm of her hand and says "Heal":: Oh well. It's better then expressing myself in harmful and violent ways.
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